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In 1983, being a 16 year old Christian, I prayed that God would send me a boyfriend but only the one that was to be my husband. My heart's desire was that I would find a boy to date but only the right one. I met Gary the next day. Within two months, we dated. It didn't take long before I told him that he needed to be saved if he wanted to continue dating me. That day in 1984, Gary accepted the Lord as his Personal Savior. Four years later, we ran away and got married. By 1989, I had a marriage of mental and physical abuse, which led to adultery. By 1995, my life was a total mess. I didn't need God anymore. There was nothing God could do for me (at least I thought). I decided that the only way out was a divorce. By 1996, I decide to pursue the divorce and told Gary that he had to find a place to go. What I didn't know was that Gary decided that that the place he needed to go back to was the foot of the Cross. Gary rededicated his life to Jesus Christ and prayed for a restoration of his life and his family. The more he prayed the angrier I became. I was determined that nobody was going to change my mind. Gary prayed diligently and didn't waiver for he knew what Jesus could do. The next seven months, Gary learned how to let go and let God. He wrapped himself in the church attending every service and even volunteering any spare time that he had. By doing this it helped Gary keep focused on what God was doing and not the situation. Then during a Thursday service in February, God gave Gary a special word "YOU CAN'T EVEN PHATHOM WHAT I CAN DO". Gary took that word and cherished it. I was still determined to get this divorce. In May of 1997 the divorce was final. Even after the divorce was final, Gary knew that God would restore his family and kept on believing. When times of doubt creeped in God would always remind him of what He told him "YOU CAN'T EVEN PHATHOM WHAT I DO". Then on December 12, 1997 I fell apart. I had such pain that evening that even the drinking, friends or even a boyfriend couldn't help. Desperate and angry, I went to church that Sunday Evening. I realized God never left me but he was chasing me. As I stood re-dedicating my life, I knew I couldn’t live without my Father. Even though I was divorced I knew that I was still married in God's eyes. I didn't know what do. The only thing I knew to do was to seek the face of God. I prayed, read the Word and even seeked counseling from my pastor. The Lord instructed me that I needed to remarry Gary. I said "How can I do this, I don't love him like that?" I knew from that point on, I needed to fully trust God and obey His Word. On August, 28 1998, I remarried Gary. When we remarried, I didn't feel anything but a Love for God and I made a decision to do as He wanted for me no matter what. As I stuck close with God's Word and followed after Him is when a real miracle occurred. I loved Gary but in April of 1998, as I was making my husband breakfast on Saturday, I jumped and turned to him and said these words "Oh Gary I feel it, I really am in love with you". See it happened with no material, physical or mental persuasion. God gave it to me. Nothing could ever compare to this kind of love. I know because I loved all these ways.
After 17 years the testimonies in our lives are endless. To make it short, we have been boyfriend and girlfriend, married, separated, reunited, divorced and finally remarried. I could never put on one page how God (so patiently) showed us (and is still showing us) the way to VICTORY. This web site is for you if you are not in love with God, don't love yourself, and are not in love with your husband. If you think you need a divorce so God can send the one that was meant for you, DON'T LISTEN TO IT. It's a lie from the devil. As I grew up, I was told "Oh you'll know when your in love(you'll feel it)". I never knew how or what to feel until I let God show me what true love is. Our hopes and prayers are that we can help you see and realize that you can have heaven on earth with your marriage. It's not too late. You didn't pick the wrong mate; we all just need God and His Word. I'm still learning a lot. Just because you have a great marriage and you love your spouse, don’t stop growing. Don’t ever start taking things for granted and don’t ever let anything come between your relationship between God and your spouse. Make a decision; let God show you your life. Make a decision to do things His way ONLY then He will be able to show you what happiness and true fulfillment really is.
